Self-Medicated

Yes its a wicked day. I am still awake. I got no sleep. I am feeling very …hmmm….fuzzyheaded.
Or is that lightheaded? Maybe sillyheaded? Well whatever head it is, its not working very well. I can’t think. I need sleep. But Wednesday is here! So? it’s just another day. Yes I know its nothing great. I’m just babbling now. No telling what my fingers will type…blah blah blah!
I can see that this is a great post! Fabulous! But seriously, I need to sleep…ssleeeep!
I’m off to bed. See if I can shut my peepers for a couple hours.

Guess what? I’m up and can’t sleep. My leg is at it again. So, here I am doing silly quizzes!The last one is perfect…LOL

Your Brain is Blue

Of all the brain types, yours is the most mellow. You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don’t try to think away your troubles. Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they areYou tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life.

You Were Born Under:

Your most comfortable inside your head - and often daydream the day away. You have an artistic temperament that makes you seem creative to some, eccentric to others. You avoid conflict at all costs, and you have a difficult time with relationships. Attractive and with good manners, you tend to shine in social situations. You are most compatible with a Pig or Rabbit.

You Sometimes Don’t Get Enough Sleep

You’re often more tired than you’d like, and you’re probably not getting enough quality sleep. Sleeping a little more could make you a lot more energetic and happy. Try having a bedtime, keep your bedroom cool, and only eat fruit before bed.

Today I waited. Matt was here for dinner. He has decided to stay in his place for another month. I hope that it was the right choice. I guess we will see.
Anyways, next Monday we are having ladies lunch for my Sister’s birthday. She still needs to pick a restaurant. I’m looking forward to the bra party after at Lucy’s place. Hope some will fit me since mom thinks she got the wrong size for me.

I haven’t blogged these last few days since I don’t have much to say but I’ll find something to blog about tomorrow. For now I am climbing into my cozy bed and going to watch Law & Order.

As my week begins… I find myself worrying over Matthew’s fate. What will happen to him in the future? I know he is having a very tough time on his own. His job doesn’t pay much. Only enough that he can keep is car insured and to buy coffee and cigarettes. He doesn’t know how he will pay his rent this month. We have helped him as much as we can with paying rent in the past, but now its putting us in need of help if we keep doing that. So the money is cut off and he needs to make some very big decisions. We have offered him to come and live with us again. With this option he will have to follow some rules. The biggest one is the smoking. He will have to quit the minute he moves in and if he doesn’t follow this rule I will be forced to evict him. There are other rules, like learning how to manage his money and he will have to go to school. We want him to get a trade of some sort so he can survive on his own. If he moves here he has that chance. Yes, it will be a bit crowded, but we will make it work.

Now if he decides to stay on his own I’m not sure what will happen to him. He doesn’t have the money for rent. I’m sure welfare won’t give him enough to cover it. From what I see he will be out living in his car by next weekend. This is not what I want for him. I just can’t make this choice for him. He needs to do it. Hopefully he makes the right one.

In the mean time I sit and worry.