Today is my youngest son’s birthday. He is 18, finally an adult. What can I say about him? Well, he is very unique. He has always been a very active kid. As a small boy he kept me running after him more than Matthew ever did. I’m going to stop right here… and tell you that this is so hard to put in words how I feel about him. I want to cry right at this moment. I feel like I didn’t do a good job of being the best mother I could have been to him. The guilt that I carry with me sits heavy on days like these. I tried so very hard with all I had to be there for both the boys. If I could of, I would of had them with me all the time. There was a thing called “Bob’s way” that stopped me dead in my tracks. I won’t go into the details of what happened back then, but I will say that it wasn’t lack of trying on my part, that I lost you to him. My life changed just as much as the boy’s did.
The day he was born, his dad was so proud that I honestly thought he would burst. I remember it was a Wednesdays at 5:20pm. It was a long day. But worth every painful minute. When he was little he did a few crazy things like shove a marble up his nose, which resulted in ending up at the ER. He also fell and broke his collarbone and told the Doctors at the ER that his dad pushed him. His dad didnt push him, but Colby thought it would be funny to say it.(his dad ended up in handcuffs…long story) There were many trips to doctors with him as a baby since he had “croup” He spent 4 days in an oxygen tent when he was 2. We didn’t know if he was going to make it that time. I dont think I was ever that scared in my life. Other the years there were even more similar events.
When I look at Colby now, I see the boy that has become a man. He still has his little boy ways about him, which I’m sure he always will have. Now there is a new person in him. He is coming into his own. He has matured so much the last couple of years. A mother could not be more proud than I am. He has graduated high school and is now joining the real world. He has told me not to worry, that he will not be going down the same path has his father(thank the Lord). He is planning on becoming a heavy-duty mechanic. So I assume there will be some extra schooling to do. He has even said that by the time he is 30 he will be married and have at least 2 kids.(LOL) He has is all planned out.
I can only wish him all the luck in the world and hope that the world will treat him well in his life. Happy birthday Colby!