Autumn is finally starting. All the trees are starting to drop leaves and the birds are heading south. I’m almost ready to turn on the fireplace again. The evening air gets chilly and darkness comes early. Soon it will be dark by 5pm. Maybe its the change in seasons that makes me a bit melancholy. I just felt a bit out of it this week. I tried to be happy and upbeat, but it didn’t really happen.

I have been trying to figure out what it is that is making me miserable and I have a few ideas as to what it could be. First, we are having some money troubles. This has never really been a worry for me. I trust Gregg to provide us with what we need. Sure it would help if I had a job. I would work if I was able. Money is tight and we are barely staying afloat. I felt such guilt going out for lunch last week with the ladies. It was only 20 bucks, but it could of paid for gas or cat food for the month. I will have to skip the lunches for a while.

It’s also my turn to have the family over for Christmas dinner this year. I decided that I won’t be doing it. We don’t have any extra money for the supplies that we would need. This Christmas will be no giving of gifts. The boys will have to be happy with a regular dinner. Well Colby can open his gifts from last Christmas. Yeah, he still hasn’t been here. I have a feeling he won’t be here again.

Now mom wants to do thanksgiving at her place, which is fine. And if she sticks to the menu that we talked about then it won’t cost any of us much money. Then there is the big family dinner at the church. Another meal we will have to spend money on. I’m seriously thinking of not going.  Then there is my birthday and Glen’s birthday and I think a few other things in between. Everything costs money.

What else? Oh yeah, the scanner died. More money!

Oh well, life goes on.

One comment on “Autumn is Here

  1. smurf

    I totally hear ya. Surviving on 1 income is tough. You mentioned about not attending some things in the future. I think rather then not doing something at all, may need to just do it with spending less. You spend enough time alone and not feeling well as it is. You don’t want to stop everything completely, especially building memories with friends and family.

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