Vegan Christmas!

Alright, I want to clear this up. I don’t eat wheat. Actually I try to stay away from all grains. This has nothing to do with gluten-free. I will eat gluten. I just don’t eat grains. I have been tested by a real allergists (not by a friend of a friend that thinks I should eat gluten-free because my tummy hurt from eating too many christmas cookies) and the results said that I am allergic to wheat. All types of wheat as I have discovered over the last few years.

There is a big difference between wheat free and gluten-free. Any type of “wheat” causes pain for me. What type of pain?.Well think of being doubled over with breath taking pain that makes you scared to take a breath. The pain of gas building up and trying to move its way through your intestines. Getting all sweaty and dizzy. Wishing you could die instead of having to go through it.Yeah I think you get what I am saying. Then top it off with Montezuma’s revenge. Nice way to spend the day. But wait! There’s more! You get another day of dull tender aches in the intestinal areas of your body. Yes it’s just so much fun! Not.,

I instead use nut flours. I can’t eat the “gluten-free bake mixes” There are grains in them. Spelt, millet, sprouted wheat, ancient grains. Doesnt matter, they all hurt. I can’t even do bean flours, which you do find in many of the gluten-free mixes. I also don’t eat rice flour or potato. I could, but it’s my choice to leave them out since I eat Low Carb.

What does this all have to do with a Vegan Christmas? My oldest boy Matt, and his wife are now vegans. Have been for over a year. Why they decided on this, I’m not really sure. Any ways, I am having over for dinner on Christmas Eve. I had to find something they would eat. Well let me tell you, it wasnt easy to find food they could eat. Sure it sounds simple but it’s not. I searched across the vast land of Google to find something tasty to make for them but also something we could eat. Simple, veggies! LOL, not really!

A vegan doesn’t eat any type of animal product. Not able to use any dairy, eggs, and such really made it a challenge for me. Since we eat a lot of butter, cream, cheeses cause of our low carb diet. Which includes meat. After many texts messages with Matt I have finally figured out what to make for dinner. I just hope it will be tasty. Definitely not the traditional Christmas dinner!

So now I am curious what is the difference between vegan and vegetarian?   I will need to travel across the land of Google to find my answers.

Pool Noodle Wreath

All you need is a noodle, tape, hanger and some decorations. Cut the noodle to the size you want. Cut the hanger and insert each end, tape it off. Then it’s up to you how you decorate it. I did a quick job on this one.



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Merry Christmas

I woke up this morning, fed the cats, made coffee and then told Gregg that Santa had arrived. I got us a coffee with Bailey’s and we sat down in the living room. I turned on the TV to the “shaw log“. Christmas isn’t Christmas until the shaw log is on. We opened our gifts and enjoyed some more special coffee.

As I was sitting and looking at the TV, I was reminded of my Dad. Listening to the roaring fire on the TV made me think of when I was a child and we were living in Vancouver at the time. We had a fireplace in the basement. Dad sitting there on a foot stool, poking at the fire and adding another piece of wood. During the Christmas season we always had a bowl of mixed nuts on the coffee table. Dad would take some and put them along the edge of the fire and roast them. When they were ready he would pull them out and crack them for us. I can see him in my mind like it was yesterday, grabbing the walnuts and tossing them from hand to hand blowing on it to cool it down. Then putting it on the brick hearth and hitting it with a hammer just enough to crack it open. I would then get the nut pick and pull all the tasty pieces out of the shell. Walnuts were always better when roasted.

As I get older my memories are fading, but every now and then some come back so clearly.

I miss you Dad. Happy Birthday. Today I have put my blue butterfly on my tree. You are with me….always.

It’s Christmasy!

Yup! It’s getting all Christmasy around our home. All the decoration and tree are up. Just need to put some lights on outside. I guess I’ll do that this week. I didn’t know which to pick this year, blue or multicoloured lights, so I went with both.  Last year I only put up a tiny pink tree and a few decorations and it didn’t feel like Christmas. This time I put it all out again. It’s just for Gregg and I to look at and that’s what matters the most.

Well here is our Tree.

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As you can see my Grinch stocking and Gregg’s polar bear stocking are waiting to get fattened up.
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This is part of my center piece

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My Angel

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Snow peeps

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The table and chairs we inherited from Gregg’s grandparents. It opens to fit 8 people.

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The Cabinet that Gregg’s grandparents made.

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Displaying my antique ornaments.

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You can see the full set on my flickr page or go directly to our Flickr


Found it!…Sort Of

Gregg took me to Potters last weekend and I added a new snowman to my snow people collection. My collection is getting big. I think i might have to stop soon. But I just love my snow people and when I see the right one, I just have to bring him/her home. So, I have sort of found the Christmas spirit.  I wrapped all the gifts this morning and had Christmas music playing. I tried really hard to get in the spirit. I was there, but not completely. I just don’t know why I am having such a hard time with finding it this year.

Maybe it is the missing of the tree? Or, is it that we are not really doing much this year? We have our family dinner at my brother’s place on the 25th this year. Other than that, I don’t think we are doing much. We plan to go to dinner at a restaurant on Christmas eve with half the family and then will come back here with Matt and Bree to open our gifts while the rest of the family goes to Church. Its the only time I will see them. Colby will be up in Kamloops for Christmas with his Dad. Boxing day i will be cooking a turkey for Gregg and me. Possibly Glen will be here and a friend or two.

Yup, going to be a quiet one this year. Snow would really help me get in the Christmas mood. Maybe I need to bake some cookies?

Christmas Spirit

For the last 2 weeks I have been laid up. I Had started with the Christmas decorations and half way thru I tripped over Duncan. Twisting and landing on my hip so hard that I pulled a muscle. Oh the pain! It was so bad I had to use a cane to walk. After a week of doing absolutely nothing I was finally able to move around and put the cane away. Just as I am starting to feel better, Gregg decides to gift me with his cold. Back to bed I went. I am still sick, my voice sounds like a mouse going thru puberty. My sinuses are a mess, they cant decide whether to clog or drip. I think I have coughed up my lungs and put them back in about a dozen times. Everybody say it with me “thanks Gregg”.

So, it seems my Christmas spirit is no where to be found as of yet. I thought I had found it in a box of old decorations but then it vanished. I even went to some Christmas fairs and still nothing. I am starting to wonder if I will find it this year. I didnt put up the big tree, instead I went with the pink 3 footer. I like it, but I think Gregg is a bit ify on it. I just didnt feel like going thru the hassle of putting it up. Right there, that should tell you that my Christmas spirit is missing.

I was suppose to go out today with my mom and sisters to a Christmas store called Potters then this evening Gregg;s work Christmas party. Had to cancel both. I was hoping that going to Potters I might have found my Christmas spirit there, but not now. I’m really not sure where to look. I have asked all my snow people and they all give me a blank look and say nothing. Duncan has checked his bed numerous times and tho he keeps going back and digging, he still comes up empty.

Maybe I need to make a trip to the Mall? Could it be there? I have yet to do any shopping. To be honest, I dont even have it in me to buy gifts this year. I dont know what to buy for people. I think gift cards is what everyone will be getting from me. Yes, impersonal, but hey, better than nothing.

I think if it snowed it would feel more Christmasy to me.


I think this cold and all the pain I have been enduring for the last few years is finally taking a toll on me. Or maybe I am just having a pity party for myself.

When I am feeling like this, numb and emotionally drained, afraid to take one more step cause that one might actually be the step that rips the screams out of my mind. If I let go of that control, I dont think I would stop crying for months. Instead, I turn to music. It is my healer.( Even listening to Christmas music, I still cant catch the spirit)

I have depended on music to get me thru my tough times. Tonight I will lean on it again. As I sit here and listen to the beautiful voice on Annie Lennox (yes I like her) I realize that I know why the Christmas spirit has not shown itself to me. I am missing someone very special.

“Little Bird”
I look up to the little bird
That glides across the sky
He sings the clearest melody
It makes me want to cry
It makes me want to sit right down
and cry cry cry
I walk along the city streets
So dark with rage and fear
And I…
I wish that I could be that bird
And fly away from here
I wish I had the wings to fly away from here
But my my I feel so low
My my where do I go ?
My my what do I know ?
My my we reap what we sow
They always said that you knew best
But this little bird’s fallen out of that nest now
I’ve got a feeling that it might have been blessed
So I’ve just got to put these wings to test
For I am just a troubled soul
Who’s weighted…
Weighted to the ground
Give me the strength to carry on
Till I can lay this burden down
Give me the strength to lay this burden down down down yeah
Give me the strength to lay it down
But my my I feel so low
My my where do I go ?
My my what do I know ?
My my we reap what we sow
They always said that you knew best
But this little bird’s fallen out of that nest now
I’ve got a feeling that it might have been blessed
So I’ve just got to put these wings to test
Annie Lennox

Yes, I know

Christmas is in the air
Image by The Gordons via Flickr

I am not blogging as much as I should. I have really not been in the mood to blog. Plus, what should I blog about??

Christmas? ok, let’s chat about it. It’s changing. Every year it seems that its different. As a kid it was always the same. We would get ready and go to church on Christmas eve, then drive over to my grandparents house. We would get to see my Dad’s family. After that we would head home. Where we would have something to eat and then open gifts. that changed as we got older and we opened gifts on Christmas day.

Since my sister got married, we have been switching the 25th and the 26th for our family dinner. It worked well so that my sister could see her husbands family too. As we have all gotten married and have kids we have kept this arrangement. Last year I had the family here for the 26th. I moved it to 27th so that my boys could both be here and same with any other family members. This year we are all heading to my brothers place on the 25th. The year after that we go to the next brother in line on the 26th. and so on. We each take a turn having the family over so that Mom doesnt have to do the work anymore.

For the past 20 years we have been doing a family dinner with my Mom’s side of the family. My sister has always been the one to make the phone calls and send the emails and make sure everyone knows when its happening. Last year we almost canceled it, and this year we did. Why? well, seems that family is no big deal some people. My sister sent out an email asking people to let her know who was coming and only a handful responded. I told her its enough, cancel it. It’s sad that the family cant even get together once a year. This dinner was the only day in the year where I got to see relatives I dont see any other time. Unless there is a funeral or a wedding. Maybe the few that still want to do the dinner can still get together at someone’s house every year. As for the big family dinners, they are over. Sad, anyways…

I have been thinking of doing a Christmas party. I haven’t had one in about 14 years. I think it’s about time to do it again. I first thought I would do just cousins, but now I think I’ll invite others too. I also have to figure out a date. Most people already have plans on all the Saturdays in December. So I might have to pick a Friday. Unless I do it in between Christmas and new years eve. Hmmmm…

I’m also trying to decide when I should decorate. I usually wait till December 1st. Gregg likes to wait till The 11th. I guess I’ll wait for now. At least until after this weekend. We are going to the Christmas show at the Tradex Center on Saturday. So I might get some new decorating ideas. I’m also now sure if I want to set up the big tree or the small one this year.

If my back doesnt get better soon, I wont be do any decorating. And what about baking? Do I do a bunch of Christmas baking this year? Am I just doing it for me and Gregg? Sometimes I wonder why I bother. huh oh, this is sounding like the “bah hum bug” attitude coming out. Better stop that right now!

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Decorations are Done

December Already!

Christmas decoration at a shopping mall in Brazil
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Wow! where did this year go?? I cant believe that 2009 is almost over. This year has been …ok. I feel that I have changed yet again. My way of thinking is again different. I am a year older and yet I do not feel older. I do think older, if that make sense. I realize that I just dont worry about the piddly stuff as I use to. I would worry about when I would see my boys again and what they are up to and if they are safe. Now I call them and chat with them and see how things are going with work and life in general. I see them when they have time to visit. Colby hasnt been here since my dad died and I hope that he will be here for Christmas this year. If not, I will miss him but I wont spend my time worrying about it. I know I will see Matthew some time over the holidays. I use to worry about them so much when they were young. Now I feel that they are old enough to handle things on their own.

After Dad died I worried a lot about Mom. I know she is doing fine. Yes she is alone, but she is ok. The family is there for her and she keeps very busy with her sisters. It’s more that they keep her busy…lol.

Gregg has been home now for 2 months. No jobs are coming to him, but I am not going to worry about it. He will figure it out. Its pointless for me to worry since I cant really do anything to help him. Maybe in the new year there will be a job.

Yes, this year has had its ups and downs. We keep moving ahead. Hoping that one day there will be no need to struggle. It would be nice to have enough money to pay for everything and not worry about things. Some day it will happen.

Anyways, I have babbled enough….lol  Its almost Christmas time! I have done no shopping and I still have to plan the dinner for my family on the 27th. I sure hope it all works out as I hope.

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