Next Step…

Saw the Neurosurgeon. He said that my lump hasn’t grown. That’s a relief. But he can’t figure out what’s going on. So he is sending me to an Endocrinologist.  Hopefully with some more in-depth tests he will be able to help me. Now I just wait for that appointment to happen. If he decides that the lump is causing all my issues, then we will remove it. IF not, then I guess I’ll be taking some meds to help me get back to normal, and I will do MRI’s yearly to keep an eye on the lump.

In the meantime… I’m keeping busy. Learning how to use my sewing machine and all the different feet. Who knew I would enjoy sewing! LOL

Tests, tests and tests!

Let’s start from the beginning…

The past 2 years or so have been a strain to say the least. It first started when I was getting horrible tummy pains and it took about 10 months and a lot of tests, to figure out that I have IBS ( irritable bowel syndrome). Just as that was all getting figured out, a new problem started.

In January 2013 I noticed that my breasts were leaking. A very odd thing to happen at my age. It was only one tiny drop of white pus. I ignored it. Then it happened again a week later. I thought I should go see my Doctor, but I put it off. Two weeks later, again, yellow pus. I made an appointment.

My Doctor did a breast exam to see if there was anything noticeable. I told him I was having pain under my left arm and left breast. That it felt like I had aches from a possible infection. He agreed and gave me antibiotics. That seemed to help get rid of the pain. He thought that I might be having problems with my Pituitary Gland since it controls the hormones in the entire body. It’s what makes a woman lactate. He made arrangements for me to get a mammogram and a CT scan. I still was having leakage about every 2 weeks.

I had the mammogram and a week later. I also had an ultra sound a month after that. Both of those were good and clear. Awesome! No breast cancer. All my blood tests were normal too. Two days later I had the CT scan. The results are in.

The CT scan showed that I have swelling on my pituitary stalk, not the gland, that part is normal. There is a small bulbous contour of 5.5 mm on my right pituitary lobe. The next step is to have an MRI so the Doctor can figure out what is happening. He also sent me to an eye specialist since this has caused lots of discomfort in my eyes. I have blurry eyes and they are always tired and sore. My eye exams showed that there is no damage being done to the optical nerve.

6 months go by and I have my MRI. Another month and I have the results. The lump is still there. Next step is to see a Neurosurgeon. I am seeing him tomorrow.

So that’s what’s going on in my world. To be continued…..

Breathing, living..

Every day I wake up and wonder what my day will be. Some days I just want to sleep and not deal with it. Every day, as I sit on the edge of my bed, my first thought is ” Good morning Baby George. (my Tumour, yes he has a name).” He is still with me. I wish he wasn’t, but he is there and isn’t going anywhere soon.

December 6th is the day I go for my MRI to find out what will happen next. Until then I have to wait. Wait, wait and wait. There is truly nothing worse than having to wait to find out what will happen. The thoughts that go through my head daily are capable of driving me insane. Did George grow? Will I have surgery? Kemo? Or will it be so small I will just need some meds for a few months? Who knows!? It’s exhausting to think about.

So, what does one do when you know that there is a possibility of a huge life change on the way? …… you laugh. Laugh as much as you can. Laugh when where you get the chance. When you know it’s funny, just let it out, a big gut busting giggle. Why laugh? Cause life is funny! You never know what life will throw at you. So laugh at it! Go ahead!  I know that if I don’t laugh, I’ll go down the drain of depression.

Find things to do that you have always wanted to, but were afraid that people would think you are crazy. Just do it. It doesn’t matter what others think! I have realized that it really doesn’t matter what people think of me. I don’t really care if you think I am nits or if you don’ t like me. As long as I am laughing and there is a smile on my face, THAT is what matters to me.

So, there you have it. That is what I have been thinking. Do I care what you think? Not really! LOL Why? Well my life is worth more that wasting it on small shit like thinking about what you think of me. hahahaha!

Amazing how my way of thinking has changed. What’s important? ME.

If this post offends you, I’m sorry. This is how I  feel right at this moment. Deal with it. 😛

Making Changes…Again

You can see by my blog that I am changing my theme again. I get bored looking at the same theme all the time. So it was time to change it up again!

What other changes? Well, Gregg and I are doing Weight Watchers at home and it’s working for him, but it seems that it’s not doing much for me. I’m just sitting at the same weight. I’m going to keep feeding Gregg the same, but I am changing my menu a bit. No more wheat, a bit less fruit, more meat and veggie. Sort of lowcarb/paleo eating. I know I can’t eat wheat product, but I love bread. I have bought a wheat free baking mix and will see how that works for me. Going to spend some time trying out new recipes this week.

What else has changed? Hmmm…. Not much I guess. I finally got my MRI date for Dec.6th. Yeah it’s a long wait. I see my Doctor this week and will ask him if he thinks that’s too long. If so, then he needs to push me through some how. Oh wait, have I explained why I need the MRI? I don’t think I have. Well I’ll make it a short story. Basically I got worried about my breasts leaking at the beginning of the year, asked the Doctor about it and he sent me to have a mammogram done, did that. Then they wanted  to an ultrasound, did that. Both were clear and clean, come back in a year they said. I then had a CT scan of my head and it showed a tiny lump(tumour) on my Pituitary gland and some swelling. Doctor thinks that this is why I was having the leakage and the reason why my eyesight is getting worse. The swelling is pushing on my optical nerve. I am seeing an eye specialist in 2 weeks. Doctor then told me he needs an MRI to decide what the next step is. So, now I just wait.

When I heard the word tumour, I really didn’t listen. I let the word in and out. The first thing a person thinks of is cancer. The good thing is that it’s not cancer. All my blood tests have come back negative for cancer. That does help relax me a bit. Tho, I guess all these months have just been too much on me. After the Doctor told me the result of my CT scan, he asked me if I was depressed. I wanted to say no, but since my Mom was in the room with me, she said it first. She didn’t know. But the Doctor could see it. He asked some questions and had me fill out some forms that asked a lot more questions. Then he prescribed some antidepressants. I don’t like to admit that I am depressed, but I knew I was and had been for a while. I knew it already back at Christmas time. I thought I could handle it on my own.  I’ve been taking them for a month now and I am feeling a bit better. Not so tired, sad and hopeless. I don’t know how long it will take for me to get back to being happy. I sure want to be there again.

I realize that I have been sick for so many years that trying to remember the last pain free day is almost impossible. When I think about it, being in Playa del Carmen comes to mind. When we were there in 2007 for 3 week, by the second week I had stopped taking all my meds and pain killers. I was pain free! I felt so good.  When we got home, it didn’t take long, a few days and  I was taking pills again to deal with everything. Since then it just seems that my health has been going down hill.

I have hope that I will get better. I just need some help getting there. If that means I need to take antidepressants, then so be it. I just want to be normal again. To live without pain is asking too much, I know, but as least a bit less pain and sickness would be great.

Well, this post turned out a bit different from what I had planned, LOL.


Not Much

I haven’t been doing much. Well, ok that’s not really true. I have been keeping myself busy selling off my crap on the facebook group called bidding wars. I’ve made quite a bit of cash. It’s a great way to get rid of stuff without having to take it anywhere. It’s so nice to get rid of some of the clutter around here. I still a few items I want to sell, but the stuff that doesn’t go I will take to the MCC thrift store next week.

What else? Hmmm… Gregg and I started Weight Watchers 2 weeks ago. I am loving it! It’s the easiest diet I have every been on. I have lost 4.5 lbs and Gregg has lost 6.5. Not bad for 2 weeks and enjoying all foods. We even had ice cream!  I didn’t know it was so simple to count points. The best part, it’s free! Yup, that’s right. Free!

Why is it free? Well I guess if you are a geek like me, you will know how to find out everything you need to know online. Sure you can go and pay 65.00 for 3 months of the online weight watchers program, and for some, that might be the easiest thing to do. But I don’t have the cash. So I found sites that explained everything.

I know how many points I can have and I found that with Google I just need to type in my food and ask how many points the item is and I get the help I need. No more lowcarbing for me! No more counting calories either. Just count points.It’s that easy.

Now you know what I’m been doing. Oh, I am also keeping track of my diet on my other blog. Getting Healthy

Trying, Starting, Doing


I have been busy making jewellery. I would like to try to start-up a tiny business and possibly sell some of my items. I am finding it a bit frustrating. I have created a blog and it’s almost ready. Just a few details to iron out. I know that I could just go on or, but they all cost money, something I don’t have much of. Oh well, I will just keep making stuff and hope that people will want to buy some items.



Things have changed lately. There have been some family issues that needed to be talked about and for the most part they are dealt with. For me, I don’t think they will ever be done. So many things have been brought to the surface again. With time they will sink to the bottom of my mind once more. This time I plan to anchor them for good.



With all my health problems I am finally getting a bit better. I still need to get scoped in September. Which I am hoping will let me know if there is anything seriously wrong. In the mean time I am going on the assumption that I have IBS which it connected to my IC. And here is the weird part, Since the tummy problems started last July, my IC has calmed down. I have had about 6 flare ups this past year. Very odd! I do have small 24 hour flare ups when I get stressed, but I can keep them under control. I’m watching what I eat and drink. It’s been since February since I have had any type of carbonated drinks. I’ve cut back on the fake sugars and no more multi-grains or dairy. Fruits and veggies are my friends. I would give up meat but I still like a bit of bbq chicken now and then.

So there you have it! That’s what’s been going on.









Getting Better

Since my last update I am feeling much better. I haven’t seen any doctors, but I do have a lead on a family doctor that I will be meeting next week hopefully. He is my mom’s doctor.

Any ways, I have been very careful with the food and drinks and it’s making a difference. I am 99% sure that what I have is an ulcer. I have been taking vitamin E and Evening Primrose to help heal the tummy. Now that I have cut out carbonated drinks, and past the craving and headache stage, I don’t even look at the pop in the fridge. Gregg has cut back too. The only problem for me is I get bored with drinking only water and tea. Gregg brought home some flavoured waters that are sweetened with Splenda.It’s a nice change. I have one bottle a day.

I have noticed that I am not really craving meat like I use to. Mostly I crave fresh fruit and bread.Instead of eating a lot of bread I have a bowl of Kashi cereal for breakfast and some fruit. Have some bread with dinner. I’m trying to cut out all the wheat products, but it’s not that easy. Wheat is everywhere!

So, the tummy is better, but there is still bloating below the tummy. Under the belly button. I guess that would be the bowels/intestines. By the end of the day that area feels like its going to burst open. I don’t notice the feeling if I wear tight pants. When I see the doctor I will talk to him about this.Maybe I will still need to get a colonoscopy.

Well, that’s my health update.

Ya I know…

I have been wanting to blog, but just haven’t gotten around to it. As you know, if you follow my Facebook, that I have been very sick lately. A few weeks ago I had to go to the ER. The pain in my gut was just too much to handle. I was done suffering through it. Once there, they did some tests, blood and urine. All came back negative. That was good. It was a relief to know that everything was functioning properly. The Doctor gave me a prescription for some very strong antacids. He arranged for me to come back in a couple of days for an ultrasound. which also showed that all was good on the inside. They had no clue as to what would make my tummy hurt so much. They said I should see a gastrointestinal specialist.

Since then I have been figuring out what is wrong with me. I did a lot of googling. I wondered why he gave me antacids so I started looking at that. Which lead me to look at ulcers. The more I googled the more I learned.

Last July I was having a lot of back pain. I was taking about 6-8 Advil pills to help with the pain.By September my tummy was hurting. I felt a burning pain that wouldn’t go away. I saw the Doctor and he told me to stop with the Advil and that I probably burned my gut. It just needed to heal. Well he didn’t tell me anything else. A month later I was back and he had retired. Long story short, The Doctor at the walk-in clinic didn’t know what he was doing. Guessing games and giving me pills that made me worse.

So here I am. Self diagnosing myself once again. I am 99% sure that I have an ulcer. I found out that Advil is the leading cause of ulcers. The antacids have helped so much. I’m also eating different. I have given up all carbonated drinks. Cut back on caffeine. Only have my coffee in the morning.(can’t give up coffee). No more fried foods. Low fat and almost no dairy products. Mostly I am eating Alkaline foods. which means cutting out acidic foods.

Since I started 2 weeks ago, about 80% of my symptoms are gone. So does this mean I am right and I do have an ulcer? Should I go back to that stupid walk in clinic doctor? Do I need to go see a gastrointestinal specialist? I do know that I still need to find a family doctor.


Just Living

Only 3 days left and October is here. This year went by so fast. I know that I didn’t do much blogging this year. I guess I just didn’t have much to say. My life is a bit boring. When you don’t have a job, no kids around and a small home, it doesn’t leave much for a person to chat about. I guess my life has become very simple in some ways.

I gave up all my friends I had when I left my old life. So friends now can be counted on one hand. Which is fine with me. It’s quality not quantity that counts. Less friends means there is no gossip or back stabbing. I hate drama. It also means that my days are quiet, since most people work during the day. I find things to do at home. I also have Duncan to amuse me.

So what have I been doing? Well… I have started to see a new Chiropractor. My Mom is always trying to find a way to help me get better ever since my neck injury (my neck was snapped by a Chiropractor 10 years ago). Ever since then I have seen many Doctors and a few different chiropractor just to help with my lower back pain. No one has touched my neck since that last time all those years ago. Well, this new guy says he can help me (they all say that). I wasnt too sure, but I told Mom I will give him a try since I heard from a few people who see him that he has helped them. I have committed to 6 months with him. If there is no change in that time I quit.

I’ve been seeing him for 3 weeks now. The first 2 weeks were torture. I spent many days crying and about 10 days on the couch. But every time I saw him he would tell me that I need to feel the pain before I feel better. I guess he was right. I have been off the couch now for about 4 days. I can move around without wanting to scream from the pain and I have taken no pain killers. That is a huge plus for me. I have been on prescription pain meds for the last 10 years. I’ve been letting him work on my neck and head, but no adjustments. There is no twisting the head. He uses a toy called the Activator. Its more like doing acupressure points. Less stress to the body. It seems to be working so far.

I have been having more dizzy days but that could just be me having a bad week. So hard to tell when being dizzy is normal for me. I will keep going and hope that he will help me improve my mobility. At least now I can start walking and some light yoga stretches. I want to be in shape again and that means I have to start from scratch. My body has become so weak. baby steps!

What else? We gave up on the low carb eating plan. I gained from it and Gregg didnt lose anything. I wish we could afford to join a diet center somewhere. I know when Gregg was doing the L.A. Weight loss plan he did great. Lost a lot of weight. I think having to check in, makes a person more accountable. I want us both to be in shape. I don’t really need to lose weight, just need to tone up and strengthen the muscles. Would be nice to not be winded after walking a flight of stairs. Plus I want to be able to wear a bikini next time we are in Mexico.

So there, that’s all the exciting stuff around here. LOL…yeah its not much. Gregg is still doing his courses which will be at least another 18 months before he is done. Sure eats up the money, but it will be worth it in the long run. I guess now its time to start thinking about Christmas shopping…lol.