Music

Christmas Spirit

For the last 2 weeks I have been laid up. I Had started with the Christmas decorations and half way thru I tripped over Duncan. Twisting and landing on my hip so hard that I pulled a muscle. Oh the pain! It was so bad I had to use a cane to walk. After a week of doing absolutely nothing I was finally able to move around and put the cane away. Just as I am starting to feel better, Gregg decides to gift me with his cold. Back to bed I went. I am still sick, my voice sounds like a mouse going thru puberty. My sinuses are a mess, they cant decide whether to clog or drip. I think I have coughed up my lungs and put them back in about a dozen times. Everybody say it with me “thanks Gregg”.

So, it seems my Christmas spirit is no where to be found as of yet. I thought I had found it in a box of old decorations but then it vanished. I even went to some Christmas fairs and still nothing. I am starting to wonder if I will find it this year. I didnt put up the big tree, instead I went with the pink 3 footer. I like it, but I think Gregg is a bit ify on it. I just didnt feel like going thru the hassle of putting it up. Right there, that should tell you that my Christmas spirit is missing.

I was suppose to go out today with my mom and sisters to a Christmas store called Potters then this evening Gregg;s work Christmas party. Had to cancel both. I was hoping that going to Potters I might have found my Christmas spirit there, but not now. I’m really not sure where to look. I have asked all my snow people and they all give me a blank look and say nothing. Duncan has checked his bed numerous times and tho he keeps going back and digging, he still comes up empty.

Maybe I need to make a trip to the Mall? Could it be there? I have yet to do any shopping. To be honest, I dont even have it in me to buy gifts this year. I dont know what to buy for people. I think gift cards is what everyone will be getting from me. Yes, impersonal, but hey, better than nothing.

I think if it snowed it would feel more Christmasy to me.

*sigh*

I think this cold and all the pain I have been enduring for the last few years is finally taking a toll on me. Or maybe I am just having a pity party for myself.

When I am feeling like this, numb and emotionally drained, afraid to take one more step cause that one might actually be the step that rips the screams out of my mind. If I let go of that control, I dont think I would stop crying for months. Instead, I turn to music. It is my healer.( Even listening to Christmas music, I still cant catch the spirit)

I have depended on music to get me thru my tough times. Tonight I will lean on it again. As I sit here and listen to the beautiful voice on Annie Lennox (yes I like her) I realize that I know why the Christmas spirit has not shown itself to me. I am missing someone very special.

“Little Bird”
I look up to the little bird
That glides across the sky
He sings the clearest melody
It makes me want to cry
It makes me want to sit right down
and cry cry cry
I walk along the city streets
So dark with rage and fear
And I…
I wish that I could be that bird
And fly away from here
I wish I had the wings to fly away from here
But my my I feel so low
My my where do I go ?
My my what do I know ?
My my we reap what we sow
They always said that you knew best
But this little bird’s fallen out of that nest now
I’ve got a feeling that it might have been blessed
So I’ve just got to put these wings to test
For I am just a troubled soul
Who’s weighted…
Weighted to the ground
Give me the strength to carry on
Till I can lay this burden down
Give me the strength to lay this burden down down down yeah
Give me the strength to lay it down
But my my I feel so low
My my where do I go ?
My my what do I know ?
My my we reap what we sow
They always said that you knew best
But this little bird’s fallen out of that nest now
I’ve got a feeling that it might have been blessed
So I’ve just got to put these wings to test
Annie Lennox


Christmas Music

Musicovery

Found this player yesterday and played with it all day. Very easy to use. Just pick the era and the type of music you like and then pick a mood. It will start to play songs. It has a very large collection. If you sign up you can look at your favorites list and see everything that you have listened to.

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Music Page

I have added a music page and a player. I want to share my love of music with all of you. Please let me know if the player is annoying. I can remove it and do something different. Do check back at least once a week. I plan to add one song a week, maybe more. Hope you all enjoy my picks and if not, well thats too bad 😛 LOL

Barenaked Ladies Children’s Album

Good way to start the day

Dance Little Man! Dance!

Demons Song

Demons

I have always felt that my life can be played out by the music I have listened to through out my entire life. Thats a lot of music! Well today I have been listening to music to pick out what I want to put on my mp3 player to take with to Mexico. When I listened to a song that I hadn’t heard yet. Its from Kenny Chesney‘s new album “Just Who I am – Poets & Pirates” its called “Demons”. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but after listening to it I realized that it is a song that describes my life. I truly understand the words of this amazing song. I know it sounds silly to say a song can describe someone’s life, but it really does. I fight with my “Demons” almost everyday. I feel them all the time, they are and will always be there for me. I don’t think that they will ever really go away. Some may hide in the far corners of my memory and others stay awake and taunt my every thought. I try hard to make them go away.

Life is full of hard times, and some where along that hard road there are good times that come along and make life worth living. Some of us just have to work a bit harder at finding the good road. Trust me, we all slip back and fall hard from time to time, but as long as we make it back and try to do the good things in life, all bad things can be forgiven.

Here are the lyrics to the song.

Demons

Sometimes they’re in a bottle,
Sometimes a pair of high-heel shoes,
Some come rolled in paper
Some have six strings and only play the blues
Once you’ve met the devil
There ain’t no way he’ll let you be
When I’m not chasing demons,
There’s demons chasing me

Skeletons in closets
Ghosts underneath the bed
They hide out in pictures
And words better left unsaid
They hang around like perfume
And haunt me like an ancient melody
When I’m not chasing demons,
There’s demons chasing me

There’s things that I can’t leave alone
‘Cause they won’t leave me alone
What I want ain’t what I need
Still I reach for the things I crave
Then try to run away
Am I afraid of being free
‘Cause when I’m not chasing demons
There’s demons chasing me

So roll one up and light it
Pick up my old guitar
I’m playing crossroads
Drinking whiskey from a mason jar
Heartache at my front door
Says she needs my company
When I’m not chasing demons
There’s demons chasing me

There’s things that I can’t leave alone
‘Cause they won’t leave me alone
What I want ain’t what I need
Still I reach for the things I crave
Then try to run away
Am I afraid of being free
‘Cause when I’m not chasing demons
There’s demons chasing me

When I’m not chasing demons
There’s demons chasing me

Demons chasing me